I am getting too much angry on spouse and son. Absence of maid servant may not be the only reason. I am seeing the futility of all these. Why do I work in a job where I am not happy, students are not happy, employer is not happy. What future holds for me. Work here till I re tyre? I know I love to learn than to teach. But I will not paid to learn. I can feel bearably ok , when I am teaching to smart kids. Smart kids will become oversmart after they feel they have learnt enough from me. But I work because TINA factor.
How long? How to come out of this infinite loop. There is no ctrl C. Or will it cause kernel panic? So far I was just trying either alt-tab or ctrl z. exit I am not sure. But halt is only in the hands of superuser. Alas I am not that.
Suppose I leave this job , I can stay at home. Go to my library once a week read books and clean and cook the rest of the time. (Have not I argued like this each time I had quit my job only to realise I wont clean and cook little. And will be bored to death) If I do not leave, I can try to accept the job with the clear understanding that I may never get a different job. But still I am getting money which matters.
How long? How to come out of this infinite loop. There is no ctrl C. Or will it cause kernel panic? So far I was just trying either alt-tab or ctrl z. exit I am not sure. But halt is only in the hands of superuser. Alas I am not that.
Suppose I leave this job , I can stay at home. Go to my library once a week read books and clean and cook the rest of the time. (Have not I argued like this each time I had quit my job only to realise I wont clean and cook little. And will be bored to death) If I do not leave, I can try to accept the job with the clear understanding that I may never get a different job. But still I am getting money which matters.
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