Perpetually Perplexed

Morning, I tried continuing the binary tree deletion program. I wrote some code and gcc-ed it and executed it. To get segmentation fault. I got up and went straight to kitchen, telling myself "I do not have time for segmentation faults now". Of course, I do not have time for segmentation faults, but I have time for googling for funny quotes to be set as my whatsapp dp. I have time to watch "Friends" millionth time. And I have time to sit and ruminate past, present and future bad scenarios. And my spouse will be wishing me more segmentation faults so that I will spend some time in the kitchen. On a relevant topic, segmentation fault is renamed as null pointer exception in Java. And we get these a lot. So much so that, after I make any small changes to my android program and I run it, and I do not get null pointer exception, I start searching on my desk. Where did NPE go? I relish these errors. I savor them. Because, unlike in C, where program crashes wi...

I was looking at a facebook group for Linux - the open source operating system. One unlucky person posted a question asking what is Linux. There were many comments saying it is love, it is an animal, it is washing powder, chips. One member said outright "go sell your laptop". They were ridiculing the person and enjoying it. So the question is why do we ridicule others? It makes us feel happy. Why? Because we feel that we are entertaining others. Do we realize that our joke is hurting the other person? Of course we do. And we do not mind. By ridiculing the other person we are telling ourselves and others that see I am being so witty. And when we do that, we feel superior. There is another situation where we feel superior. Compassion. When we show sympathy towards those who are less fortunate than ourselves, we feel good. Again the underlying feeling is we feel superior. So folks, please use sympathy rather than ridicule to show your superiority. Because it is less hur...

I was not feeling so well. Emotionally. Without any particular reason. I went to terrace to walk as usual. Then I remembered a certain person who walks in a very arrogant way. As if the arms are wider than they are and body erect and head held high. I started imitating that way and immediately I felt better and calmer. How it happens, I am not sure.I am no psychologist nor a medical professional.  So through out the day, I practiced that reminding myself to be straight and each time I instantaneously felt better. I need the reminder, because I am your average middle aged under confident woman.  Hence I feel, these kind of techniques should be advised to people and believe me, they help better than any medication. Note:  It seems the power postures really work. For example, according to a lifehacker post,  before an important meeting, instead of hunching in front of a smart phone, if you are stretched with a news paper, your confidence is increased.

 We are told to praise the Lord morning, evening and night. What is the use of it? He is not going to hear us, nor can he come and praise us back. And I don't think he needs any more self confidence. What with some versions of him supposedly saying ( I am making this up! Forgive me, Lord)  if you look at other gods, you will rot in hell. Instead praise your children. They are hungry as much for your positive stroke as much as for the food you burn cook. You are talking over the phone for the past one and a half hour , your little one tugs your arm and shows "Amma, amma, look I have drawn the sky and tree". What do you do? You say "not now" and chase him away and finally when your tele-conversation is over, you burst on him/her"You are not letting me talk at all. And why are you drawing that stupid thing? Don't you have any home work to do? Now let me look at the drawing again. Why is it so ugly? Why have you not colored neatly? When I asked you to go...

Most of our problems have really simple solutions. But we tend to ignore them and instead keep crying mommy.... Some trivial example here. I was having severe cold and cough. I kept grumbling, crying and lying down for 2 days. Then I just took a cough syrup and see now I am back at blogger. And because of cold, my tongue was tasteless and I wanted to eat crisp and spicy fried food. Then I realized a simpler solutions. I put a small piece of tamarind in my mouth. I felt equally better without the consequences like worsening of cough or acidity. And did I tell you about how I paid 1600 rupees to IndusInd bank for a deficit account. Yes, I had an account, and there were not much funds. But they did not inform me until November. And by that time maintenance fees has gone upto 1600 (275 rs per month). When I went to close the account, the helpful lady told me that I have to pay that amount before I close the account. I paid cursingly. And the best part of is today I got a second lett...