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Self confidence

A nanny is hugging a child and telling her in slow monotonous voice "You is smart, you is intelligent, you is strong". Child is listening with wide eyes.

This was a scene from the movie "The help". We did not have nannies when we are growing up. But our parents told us these things. And we became smart, intelligent and strong.

And brimming with self confidence.

Until the day our lives changed for ever. We were made to leave our parents to live in a  new house.

This news house was where all the statements about us were meant to be wrong. This is where our self confidence was broken systematically,  until no one can find it even with a microscope.

I don't want to put the blame completely on in-laws if living in joint family or on husband if not. It could be we ourselves. Due to social conditioning. Suddenly our focus should turn to cooking, cleaning and maintenance of the home and caring for family. We who hardly knew the difference between green dal and tur dal are suddenly supposed to cook thrice a day, each time delicious special meals. Our values are decided on how well we cook rice and sambar, how round are our dosa and chapatis and how clean our house is any time of the day. Every one tells us this fact and we start believing it and trying very hard for this new standard.

We try so hard that we stumble in each step. We make mistakes and get ridiculed for these, cry in secret. It seems that harder we try, farther is our goal. Of becoming perfect home maker. This makes us depressed, we start telling ourselves that we will never be good cooks, never be good wives and never be good at anything. 

Society plays also plays a very huge role here.  It tells that a married woman need to be good wife, good mother and NOTHING ELSE. How dare she pursue her career not taking care of her children? Why does she dress like that? Is she from a respected family or not? And so on.

Self confidence is one of the most important skills. And this is how most women lose it in the course of their marital life.

What women need to do now is re-build that confidence.

Whole world is there to judge you. Find faults with you. Point your mistakes. You don't have join them in. At least you have to be on your side.

One way of building that confidence in yourself is , whenever you get self doubt, whenever your mind starts blaming you for everything under the sky, take a deep breath. And delete that negative thought. Delete it completely, even from recycle bin.

And when you think about your positive qualities, amplify that thought. By a million times.

 And this next method may sound silly. But it works for me. Stand straight or sit straight. With your back erect. This posture makes you feel confident immediately.

Practice being confident. ALWAYS.

Because we women need self confidence. To survive in this world.


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